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I can see and feel your desperation even from here .Try and be yourself be more relaxed and let the man do the talking most of the time,don't drive them too much rather let them drive you and dont allow your other self get control rather let it all out very slowly and the man will see you for who you are and not the desperation on your face...
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Thankfully you have Baffld to confess your "desperation". Your words echo the sentiments of many a woman in your shoes. Especially when you feel that pull towards motherhood and finding yourself in your 30s without a partner...
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You know that if motherhood is what you truly are seeking, you have the financial means and you feel you are emotionally stable...there are alternatives where you can have a child without being married. I wouldn't recommend it because it is so difficult raising babies even in the best marriage/partnership. But if being a mom is one of your biggest life goals, there is such a thing as "single mothers by choice". You can google that phrase to find out what your options are...
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But it is also never too late to find a partner. Maybe with some therapy or counseling, you can find a way to eliminate the "desperate" part of your search. I met my bf through match.com. Yes, I was eager and dated many before finding him. But when we found each other it just felt right...

Go on JDate. A lot of the guys there are just as desperate to get married...
I went out on a bunch of first dates and one guy named our kids. Like 9 out of 10 guys wanted to get married and have babies right away and said so on the first date...
There are a lot of guys who are 39, or 43 who realized they want kids soon...
You could go ahead and adopt a baby. A friend of mine did that when she turned 40. She adopted a little girl, and then found the perfect husband a couple years later. There was less pressure because she already had the kid, so she could take time to find Mr. Right...

I would try to work on focusing your attention on the journey a little more than the goal. Think of other goals you have achieved: graduating high school or college or whatever, you probably weren't thinking when you went to each class: "I have to get that diploma!" You were focused on the task at hand: that class you were in at that hour on that day. One step at a time. Before the marriage and the babies you have to start with a great date. Think about what it would take to make a really awesome date, and figure out how to make that date happen...